They say when one door closes another one opens. We just don't know when.
I knew it was going to be a risk when I quit my dayjob to follow my dreams/heart. I was confident because I landed an additional dj gig so I knew the cash flow would be smaller than I had become acustomed to but i'd survive and be okay. I just didn't expect that job to fall through a month later.
They sold the club that I was working for which leaves me down to a single paycheck and though I can survive on that one check, there's simply no room to breathe. It's literally going to cover my necessities and that's it. I'm scared, yes and i'm trying my best to stay in high spirits. "Something better is on it's way" I keep telling myself. I have to believe that or i'm done for. I shouldn't be complaining (and i'm not) for there are consequences in everything we do. I want to be free and happy and this was the risk that I chose to take. Still I can't deny that it's scary. I won't ask my fam or friends for anykind of help because I refuse to make it seem like i've failed so i'm going to grin and bear all of this and keep my prayers floating up to the universe. I know something great is going to come along I just have to be patient, right?
Hang in there, Tori! You can do it!
Posted by: crusher | September 29, 2006 at 11:16 AM
L, you're already living the dream that the rest of us are too chickenshit to even contemplate. Since you've already won, what's there left to be afraid of?
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Posted by: John | September 29, 2006 at 05:54 PM