I'm Still Here

I've been gone awhile but i'm back.

Okay so it's been awhile since i've been on here. I'm sorry. I've been lost in my own little world for awhile. I don't know where to begin. I've been working diligently on a variety of projects including doing some score work for a movie that I truly wanted to be a part of. A movie that was picked up by a major distributor, I believe, but not only that but it has a great cast with a few major names so the film will be a great addition to my resume. Not only that but it will be great promotion for my new cd as well. Pick up the Mic debuts on LOGO next year as well and it'll be on DVD and I think that will help cd sales as well. So I not only need to put a slight "rush" on this new record but it's gotta be the best thing i've done so far. Not only that I really need to create a GREAT product that can be accessable to as many people, places and projects (i.e. movies, commercials, etc...) as possible. Therefor the pressure is on!

To make things even crazier is all of the artists that are dropping new projects next year and i've luckily have my hand in a lot of them. More than the last few years, actually. Still I know there will be some hot projects dropping and i've gotta come with it like never before and that's exactly my plan!......if I could just STOP overthinking everything. Ugh. The songs are coming slowly but surely and there are a few really strong songs that I love but I gotta have a whole album of "strong songs" so i'm pushing myself as hard as I can.

Moving on, my bf is pretty sick. I think he's worse off than he's telling me and i'm really worried about him and the shitty thing is there's nothing I can do to help him. It doesn't help that we live 400 miles from each other either. Ugh. it's been a rough time for us but i'm hangin' in there. I'm actually down here now, visiting him and trying to just love and take care of him and if anything just be here for him. It's really hard to keep thinking to yourself "what if today is the last day?" Unfortunately as sad as that sounds, it's true and I can't help but think that each and everyday. Especially on the days where he's really sick. I get truly terrified. Still i'm trying to be strong. I love him so I have to be.

As for everthing else, well....i'm still looking for more gigs. I"m still only down to 2 main dj gigs and i'm just getting by but that's another blog. I'm outta here.

xo

Comments

[crusher]

Tori, thanks for the update. I had no idea what was going on with you, haven't heard from you in a while. I hope that you make it through these hard times, and I'm thinking good thoughts about your partner and hoping things work out. Call me if you need to talk, anytime.